i’ve always been livin’ life in this HUGE place.. the thing they called ‘world’..?
i do laugh… :]
but have i really loved??…. i’m still asking my self ! i wonder how i love, have i loved?, i guess so… i love my parents! my “VIP”!, my friends?, even those people i hardly know…
i know how to love! i know how i love!.. but maybe, i’m just trying to hide it in the deepest part of me… am i afraid? …to get hurt?, to fail?, to disobey?… i guess i am.. i have just said it… it’s hard to love when you’re caught up on your own curtains…[getz?=]
[being afraid of hurting & failing]: ..yah! i am afraid, to take my chances, to get hurt, to put my heart into the risk of being broken.. but i am not alone!! everybody is afraid!… =]ayt?
[on disobeying]: ..but is loving really a sin?? God told us to love!, that’s His greatest commandment! and i was thinking i am going to disobey it!!.. but i am!! as what my parents is saying … loving at a wrong time?.. do loving really has a right time??.. aArRgghh!!, i just hate it… -guess i am not really free, not yet-
love isn’t really easy, especially when it’s what you call “true”…
do you really think i believe in it?.. nah!!.. people like me don’t look back and search for ‘true love’… i even can’t see that one at home! [my mom & dad are like best friends!-lol] i have only read it on story books, fairy tales, ‘fantasy’ it is…
but at second thought?, i guess it really exist! laugh at me but i can’t deny it… i felt so stupid this time, wondering why i am having this topic on my blog.. i guess i am probably like everybody[almost i guess].. caught up with someone’s arrow… & then, someone has just made me realize…
just wait till love comes your way, and everything you’ve been waiting will be yours.. then you will realize, everything that is, was worth waiting for…
i remembered… my mom used to tell me, “don’t rush, it will just come… if it’s for you, you’re going to have it in time…” though she wasn’t really talking about ‘love’! i am still able to recall that statement in times of despair[esp. in love]…
even that someone told me he’s going to wait… [though i didn't told him so]… he made me believe in fairy tales… just so i know, they’re right… waiting isn’t really hard, if you really have that will to ’stay’… so as promises can be broken, but were done because of that same will… [remember those disney princesses who have waited on their own bed for that someone to come and save them? which eventually made them live happily ever after??] lol, i felt like i’m one of them…=]
people really inspires me, and i believe it is God’s own way to say.. ”hey bea! i’m here to help you with this i have given you[life]!! so cheer up! you can do it!!… tira-tira!! ”.. haha yeah i am stupid… just so you know, you’ll be.. soon...
’s day! don’t ask me, ala ko’y date 
.. hehe
.happy,
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knowing someone’s waiting..
sweet chocolates,
fragrant flowers,
sweet kisses
